I will start off by saying I had a pretty good Sunday again. This week, I took my own Bass guitar to church, so my mom won't feel bad about spending that money 16 years ago and then I was asked to play the drums this week. I have never played the drums for an "audience" before (and for all you hyper spirituals out there, I know what you are thinking.... "Jesus is the only audience you should play for at church....blah blah blah") That is easy to say to someone who has done this before, but if you can't keep the beat it sure can put a damper on the worship service and make the leader run his hand across his neck to tell me to cut it out. Well, I sat through practice and rather than being told I wasn't ready, I played for the service. It wasn't perfect, but I did it. I kept a beat. I used a simple cymbal crash as a fill between the verse and chorus. Yippy! The music guy, whose name is Jon to protect the innocent was thankful and said I did good and everyone else said it was good. It worked and thats all that matters to me my first time out. I will go back next week. Who knows what I will be playing next week.
One big thing I learned through the experience is not to go through any reflecting while playing drums. As I was playing I noticed the obvious. There was Laura singing (whose name has been changed to protect the innocent) and her husband Jon on the guitar leading the songs and people joyfully singing praises to God and me playing the drums.... Me Playing the Drums! I always wanted to play the drums and now I am playing the drums more than just playing around with the drums. Wow. I am about to cry.... I can't cry when I am playing the drums... Hold back those tears, I can cry later... Holy Crap! I am crying while I am playing the drums. Can't stop in the middle of a song. Got to keep drumming..... Thank goodness no one saw me cry.... Teach saw my hands rub my eyes between songs and it all made sense too her when I told her I was crying.
The desire of my heart fulfilled. Brings Joy and happiness. Is our heart's desire the voice of God, the result of how he made us? Sure. I think so. I experienced it today as many people do.
This may seem contradictory to my previous post, but the real question is, where and how does God lead us and how can we know that it is God's voice and not us unknowingly using God to prop our desires. Hmm.
More on Sundays....
Finally, I met some friends from cyberspace. Phil and Jenny, (not their real names) stumbled into my church tonight. They are a wonderful couple and they do not have fangs or anything. Their son is just as bright as they mention in their blogs. He is full of life and energy. It was a surreal experience. Here are some people who I have been conversing with (or sometimes tormenting) with my blog comments for months now and it was like meeting them for the first time and yet it wasn't, because we all know what is going on in each others lives because we read about each other on a regular basis. It was neat. I hope my drumming was satisfactory to these music pros.... hehe.
